Sunday, July 24, 2016

pocket money

For my side job - trivia makes me a happy man, but no one said anything about rich - I run the teleprompter for the live Florida Lottery draw a few nights a week. Because if you are going to be poor anyway, you might as well not take jobs that make you miserable if you can manage it. The woman who set me up with the position was in my Girl Scout troop. Transitioning in your home town leads to odd little unlikelihoods like that. We went to high school together, two dorks in the herd, and she may have been the first peer I came out to. That was years before I knew trans men existed, because 1993 was not 2016. I was just a chubby, awkward dyke all eat up with queer.

So, from there to here. She's a mom now, I'm a man now, and I pay a bill or two because at one point the two of us hunched over a buddy burner in the North Florida woods. Sometimes I think the reason so many of us believe in fate or destiny is because the path we followed seems too strange and yet too clear to have been made up on the spur of the moment.

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  1. Exactly exactly. And yet, if we'd gone down other paths who knows but that it might have been the same in wonderment?

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    1. No matter what path we took, it would have felt just as destined, looking back.

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    3. And so says Robert frost.

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    4. Good old Frost. All that work, and this is the only one we remember.

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    5. And most people remember it wrong!

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  2. It makes me happy that you have so many people in your life that have loved and supported you. It is such a simple thing to do but seems impossible for many.

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    1. I sometimes don't even like to talk about my family because so many people I know do not have good relationships with theirs. It feels a little like bragging.

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